Scary

Miedo. Es la mejor palabra con la que puedo describir todo lo que estuvo pasando conmigo. La palabra que mejor describe lo que siento, especialmente teniendo esta edad.
Cómo quisiera sentir que mi nombre pasa por tu mente. I don't think you're what you seem. Please, say the words that I can't say.
La vida no para, no espera, no avisa.
Stop crying your heart out.

Do you remember that it was better when we were togheter? So don't live me high, my tears dry on their own.

I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you. You want more fans, I want more stage. My name is Adam I'm you're biggest fan.

ALL I'LL CAN EVER BE TO YOU IS A DARKNESS THAT WE KNOW, AND THIS REGRET I GOT ACCUSTOMED TO. ONCE IT WAS SO RIGHT, WHEN WE WERE AT OUR HIGH, WAITING FOR YOU IN THE HOTEL AT NIGHT. I KNEW I HADNT MET MY MATCH, BUT EVERY MOMENT WE COULD SNATCH, I DONT KNOW WHY I GOT SO ATTACHED. ITS MY RESPONSIBILITY, AND YOU DONT OWE NOTHING TO ME, BUT TO WALK AWAY I HAVE NO CAPACITY. HE WALKS AWAY, THE SUN GOES DOWN, HE TAKES THE DAY BUT IM GROWN. AND IN YOUR WAY, IN THIS BLUE SHADE, MY TEARS DRY ON THEIR OWN. I DONT UNDERSTAND, WHY DO I STRESS A MAN, WHEN THERES SO MANY BIGGER THINGS AT HAND. WE COULD’VE NEVER HAD IT ALL, WE HAD TO HIT A WALL, SO THIS IS AN INEVITABLE WITHDRAWAL. EVEN IF I STOP WANTING YOU, A PERSPECTIVE PUSHES TRUE, I’LL BE SOME NEXT MANS OTHER WOMAN SOON. I COULDNT PLAY MYSELF AGAIN, I SHOULD JUST BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND, NOT FUCK MYSELF IN THE HEAD WITH STUPID MEN. SO WE ARE HISTORY, YOUR SHADOW COVERS ME, THE SKY ABOVE A BLAZE. I WISH I COULD SAY NO REGRETS, AND NO EMOTIONAL DEBTS, CAUSE AS WE KISS GOODBYE THE SUN SETS.

There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard. No song I could sing, But I can try for your heart. Our dreams, and they are made out of real things Like a shoebox of photographs, With sepia tone loving. Love is the answer, At least for most of the questions in my heart. Like why are we here? and where do we go? And how come it's so hard? It's not always easy and Sometimes life can be deceiving, I'll tell you one thing, it was always better when we were together. And all of these moments Just might find there way into my dreams tonight, But I know that they’ll be gone When the morning light sings, And brings new things. But tomorrow night you see, That they’ll be gone too Too many things I have to do. But if all of these dreams might find there way Into my day to day scene. Ill be under the impression, I was somewhere in between With only two: Just me and you. Not so many things we got to do Or places we got to be, We'll Sit beneath the mango tree.I believe in memories They look so, so pretty when I sleep. Hey now, and when I wake up, You look so pretty sleeping next to me. But there is not enough time, And there is no song I could sing, And there is no combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing: We were Better together.

Do you remember when we first met? I sure do. It was some time In early September. You were lazy about it, You made me wait around. I was so crazy about you I didn't mind. So I was late for class, I locked my bike to yours. It wasn't hard to find, You painted flowers on. Guess that I was afraid That if you rode away You might not roll back My direction real soon. Well I was crazy about you then And now, the craziest thing of all Over 10 years have gone by. And you're still mine, We're locked in time. Let's rewind. Well all these times, They come and go. Alone don't seem so long. Over 10 years have gone by. We can't rewind, We're locked in time. But you're still mine- Do you remember?

Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy. Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop. You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop. You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not. Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry. Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk. All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love. They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out, They're the ones who'll spit at you, You will be the one screaming out. It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me high. Don't leave me dry.


This is gonna be the last time I cry for you. The last time I think about your paper dreams, honey eyes. The last time I think about closing my eyes, because I realized I don't mean anything to you. And if I do, I only want you to say it. You're standing there, thinking, listening. If you think you owe me something, just give it to me. I'm here, waiting. But not for you.
Siempre te dije, the more you ignore me, the closer I get. Estás perdiendo tu tiempo, aunque ya me olvidé de los soles y las miradas. Viajes a la luna, canciones, melodías, caminos, juegos, manos, sonrisas, palabras, uniones, extraterrestres, besos, perfección, frío, sol, noches, lágrimas, compartir, parecidos, ojos, miedos, crecimiento, aprendizaje. Las cosas cambian. I wish I was special. Me hacen falta cosas que se perdieron con el tiempo, cosas que no se encuentran en nadie más. Nunca, solo pequeñas cosas. Y hasta que no termine con éstos recuerdos y los guarde para siempre entre escritos, memorias y canciones; no voy a entender la importancia de todo ni voy a poder cambiar. (Casi me olvido de poner el punto final, la parte más importante de todo lo que acabo de escribir, ya que ese punto, esa minúscula partecita de la luz de mi pantalla significa The End)

Jugando con cualquier cosa

Be mine

No queríamos dormir, nos queríamos comer el mundo. No podíamos dejar de estar a solas ni un segundo Ida y vuelta de la cama a la alfombra voladora nos bastaba con dejar pasar dejar pasar las horas Horas, horas,colgados como dos computadoras Horas, horas,meta echar carbón en la locomotora Recorriendo aquel edén de sólo dos metros cuadrados ¿Que será de aquel colchón, de aquel colchón tan maltratado?Allá íbamos tu y yo llevados por el remolino nos dejábamos caer, caer, caer hacia el destino Durante horas, horas, colgados como dos computadoras Horas, horas,meta echar carbón en la locomotora No queríamos dormir nos queríamos comer a besos No queríamos dejar de cometer ni un solo exceso Nos venía a saludar en el balcón la luna llena Nos bastaba con dejar morir dejar morir la pena Horas, horas, colgados como dos computadoras Horas, horas,meta echar carbón en la locomotora
Close your eyes and think of someone you fisically admire. And let me kiss you. Oh oh oh
I JUST WANNA CRY.

I would say I'm sorry If I thought that it would change your mind. But I know that this time I have said too much, Been too unkind.

I try to laugh about it Cover it all up with lies. I try and laugh about it, Hiding the tears in my eyes. Because boys don't cry, Boys don't cry. I would break down at your feet And beg forgiveness, Plead with you. But I know that it's too late, And now there's nothing I can do. So I try to laugh about it Cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it Hiding the tears in my eyes. Because boys don't cry.

I would tell you That I loved you If I thought that you would stay. But I know that it's no use, That you've already Gone away. Misjudged your limit, Pushed you too far, Took you for granted. I thought that you needed me more, Now I would do most anything To get you back by my side. But I just keep on laughing, Hiding the tears in my eyes. Because boys don't cry, Boys don't cry. Boys don't cry.

What happens tomorrow?

Child, don't you worry It's enough you're growing up in such a hurry Brings you down the news they sell you To put in your mind that all mankind is a failure But nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow. We try not to show how frightened we are If you let me I'll protect you however I can You've got to believe it'll be alright in the end Fighting, because we're so close There are times we punish those who we need the most No, we can't wait for a saviour Only got ourselves to blame for this behaviour And nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow We try not to show how frightened we are Would seem lonely, if you were the only star in the night You've got to believe it'll be alright in the end You've got to believe it'll be alright again time is a river a silent icy river pulls us all running deep deep and fast enough to get lost down in the flow thrashing around me tiny lives mean everything And nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow So don't let go, now we've come this far. Hope I have peace Understand me you're never alone We've got to believe it'll be alright in the end nobody knows You've got to believe it'll be alright my friend So don't let go Unless we believe it'll be alright again Nobody knows.
Stand By Me, Nobody Knows The Way It's Gonna Be.

My Pei Pa Koa

Pei Pa Koa is a Traditional Chinese natural herbal remedy used for the relief of sore throat, coughs, hoarseness, and loss of voice. It is a throat demulcent and expectorant. Today, it is manufactured and sold by Nin Jiom Medicine Manufactory Limited, a Hong Kong corporation. It is available worldwide. In the name of the company, "King-to" means "capital", referring to Beijing, and "Nin Jiom" means "in memory of my mother". "Pei Pa Koa" means "Loquat syrup".

This is my Pei Pa Koa drink,
and all is for you.
I have my all time here
and all is for you.

Your lips tan cerca de mi
y eso es para mi.

Everyday, everytime is for you
Everytime, everyday is for you.

Everynight, Pei Pa Koa for me, Pei Pa Koa for you.

No será tan asi, no será tan asá- Pero de alguna manera es. Y extraño, y trataba de soñar y no podía dormir. Pensando. Era como dormir despierta. Pensar con los ojos cerrados en la oscuridad. Intentando no sonreir, cuando sabía que no era esa sonrisa que ya había conocido. Pero esta también me hacía bien. I wonder why it is-
Qué tipo de You and Me? Don't you know? Y después queremos y no. Y nos arrepentimos, y extrañamos cada momento.

It's late and I'm feeling so tired, Having trouble sleeping. This constant compromise between thinking and breathing. Could it be I'm suffering because I'm never give in?
Won't say that I'm falling in love.
Tell me I don't seem myself Couldn't I blame something else? Just don't say I'm falling in love.
Some kind of therapy Is all I need Please believe me. Some instant remedy that can cure me completely. Could it be that I'm suffering because I'll never give in?
Won't say that I'm falling in love.
Tell me I don't seem myself Couldn't I blame something else? Just don't say I'm falling in love 'cause I've been there before and it's not enough.
So nobody say it, don't even say it. I ve got my eyes shut... Won't look, oh, No, I'm not in love. Could it be I'm suffering Because I'll never give in? I'm falling love. Tell me I don't seem myself good enough for something else. Just don't say I'm falling in love, Falling in love. Just don't say I'm falling in love.

Alto y Seco. Nadie más excepto vos. ¿Am I missing somebody? ¿Or something? ¿Or sometime? ¿Or somewhere? Todo depende de como me tome en al manera en la que me esoty enrollando. Como si no supiera bien lo que siento. Sol, cierro los ojos. Just a lie. LIAR, LIAR. Entendí que intentabas compartir y no podías. Que estabas pensando en do re mi fa sol la si do y no en un par de miradas. Que no te quedaba ni te queda tiempo, y tampoco espacio. Que buscabas todo y no encontrabas nada. Que te gustaba refugiarte y cuando la luz se prendía, te ibas.
Y yo sentía que querías reservar una parte de vos para mí. Y otra vez me equivoqué. Todavía no creciste, todavía no aprendiste a crecer. Y yo, que intentaba enseñarte. Fallar nos debilita, dejarnos sin nuevas ni viejas ganas.
Lloró, cayó, sintió. Se quejó, gritó, lamió, buscó. CANTÓ. Se olvidó.
He walks away, the sun goes down. He takes the day, but I'm gone. And in your way, in this blue shade, my tears dry on their own.
Un grito (llanto o canto) azulado, violeta. Verde y amarillo. Se buscan hilo y aguja para remendar lo descocido que dejó este desconocido.

Bad-Tempered or ¿Moody's Mood for Love?

¿Qué tiene de malo estar de mal humor cuando todo a tu alrededor parece estar mal? ¿Cómo hago para sonreir y no contestar mal a cualquiera si esa persona tan cercana ya no parece confiar en mi? Cuando las peleas se hacen cada vez más profundas y difíciles. Cuando las palabras son cada vez más secas. Cuando no encuentro sonrisas en los demás. Cuando ya dejé de sentir hace tiempo esos ojos posándose en mi cuerpo. Cuando los recuerdos ya me invaden y cada día hay un nuevo motivo por el cual no sonreír, o hasta llorar. Cuando me siento cada vez más egoísta, mientras intento serlo lo menos posible. Cuando extraño a gente más que nunca, y a otra desearía no verla nunca más. Cuando siento que llegó mi momento de estar bien y termina todo mal. Cuando me doy cuenta de que que todo cambie constantemente no es tan bueno como a veces creo. Cuando me lastimo cada dos por tres, y normalmente termina siendo por mi propia culpa. Cuando odio y amo en un mismo segundo. Cuando tengo al edad que tengo, vivo con los problemas que vivo y espero que lleguen volando soluciones que tendría que buscar por mí misma.

My ex-Boyfriends

Tonight is the night for ex-boyfriends. I'm trying to call all my ex-boyfriends 'cause I feel alone and I need an ex-boyfriend To be here with me just like my friend or more.

Tonight is the night for ex-boyfriends, But I think I hate all my ex-boyfriends. It's 5 A.M., I can only call my American ex-boyfriend, they're not too mean but they are too far for sex.

So I leave a message to all my ex-boyfriends saying: "Hey, what's up, how are you my friends? I'm coming to New York soon, would you be my fuck friend?" You'll never reply 'cause you think I'm just depressed and you're right.

My ex-boyfriends... No, you don't even deserve to have your name in a crap song, So I won't say your name. Anyway, you're big enough to know It's all about you, It's all about you.

The name of the number one, start with the T. He said "Hey c'mon, its gonna be so fun" But he's the most unfunny person I have ever met. Anyway, he was gorgeous and sweet, boring but sweet... Until the day he said, until the day he said:"Sorry baby, but except Bob Dylan we have nothing in common" Age, 26. Dumped after 2 months. Profession, LIAR! Liar, liar, liar... He's such a fucking liar.

We were in love, so in love, we were so in love. We were in love!

The name of the number two, start with the K. No, actually start with a C, but with the K you'd think he is the coolest. I was very to leave Paris for him and be a good housewife in the middle of the concess, But from one day to the other he decided it was over... For no reason, you know?Just because it's over. He was so romantic, sex was so electric, Everything was magic. But he was just a trick, just a fucking trick. Age, 33. Dumped after 3 months of dreams and tears, and tears, and tears, and tears.

We were in love, so in love, we were so in love. We were in love!

The name of the number 3, start with an M. The winner of the competition, the worst of them. All he does is watch TV and do coke, drink whiskey, and scream his jealousy, He was not romantic, sex was catastrophic, He was an alcoholic, he was just pathetic... Just pathetic.

There's some that you wanna talk about, and some that you don't. There's some that you wanna hear about, and some that you don't. I wanna hear about you guys, I wanna hear about you 'cause anyway you know that its all about you... It's all about you, It's about you. All about you, all about you!

Tell me why are you gone? You're just losers and I'm alone. Again!

My Ex-Boyfriends - Soko.

Kristen Ritter for Spinetta & Ana Prada.

Ella solo intenta ser feliz, tropezando está. Nadan hoy sus ojos entre el rimmel. Su mentira ya se hundió en la hiedra.
Ves, en su abismo. Con sus enaguas quiere escapar de la bruma. Tan apurada está, que atropella el viento en la avenida.
Hoy su inútil pétalo secó por su soledad. Y con las campanas se divierte pensando que son de aquí, la muerte. Ah, si pudiera; Si ella quisiera abrirse del ser y la nada tal vez podría ver que su Dios está en la adolescencia.
Correrás al fin con frenesí por tu libertad. Pero ni bien una lagrima caiga, mil estrellas juzgaran que es en vano, ya que Dios es un mundo, En el que amar es la eternidad, Que uno busca. Y no lo pienses mas, Que tu mueca está tan despintada.

Kristen Ritter (Today seen at: Mona Lisa Smile. Yesterday seen at: Gossip Girl)

Dame la mano, que ya es hora de caminar. ¿No me ves? Sólo viento en mi pollera. ¿No me ves? Esperando, por favor.

Te miro de reojo para no perderte de vista y que seas otra estatua de sal.

2/06 09:05 p.m. -

Hearthbreaker, I'm addicted to you. You know it's true.
You asked me something I thought you knew.
Shine on me. Make your own mistakes. I realized what was on your mind. Show me with your love, like a butterfly.